Rodney J Owen - Blog

Surrender

11/26/2019

My inclination has been to chart my own course, despite what the Universe has in store for me. The inevitable result is frustration as I resist what will happen anyway. One would think that at some point I would realize the futility of it all. And somehow, even with a clearer and more open mind, I still see the same thing unfolding, although so very different. I am at the point where I think the old Zen ideal of simply being is the only real "Way" of consequence. The key point to this is being comfortable with paradox and not-knowing. Life is basically a big question mark. As soon as the question is answered, the context changes so the original question and answer are not at all relevant. We don't ever get smart enough to second-guess, or even understand the process. The best we can do is surrender.

It's really simply after all.

"Be still. Stop struggling. Enter the holy shrine of your heart, and there find peace and joy. You have always been perfect and you will always be perfect. There's absolutely nothing you have to delete or add." Robert Adams

What is Really Happening?

11/1/2019

"Life is what happens while you're busy making other plans." John Lennon

I have for sometime now, been dedicated to training/practice on a daily basis (as much as possible). I sometimes even work out temporal plans for an upcoming week. For example: Taiji form and Sabre practice on Monday; Hatha Yoga on Tuesday; Strength training on Wednesday; Hunyuan Qigong on Thursday; Taiji form on Friday; Strength training on Saturday; Sunday rest-day; with of course, meditation and some form of yogic exercise every day: Qigong, Tibetan Yoga, Pranayama, Dao Yin, etc...

Some version of this plan makes for a good schedule for me. When it works. However, what often happens is my ideal plans get altered in favor of life demands. It is at this point that the real practice begins. Training is important, and sticking to lifestyle regimes is important. And I do. However, when life has plans of its own, we have to ask: why do we do this anyway?; why do we train?; what are we practicing for?

For me, physical and energetic training are important, but they are nothing less than embodied mind training. If we see ourselves as whole entities, we can't really, in the end, divide ourselves into mind-body, three treasures, or anything else. When we are engaged in physical practice, we are also engaged in mental practice, and vice-versa. Further, we are training to live life. And the ultimate aim of life is love. So, when we are faced with challenges, we must respond with love. When work demands or family situations divert us from our physical and/or spiritual routines, we are blessed with opportunities to apply our training. Such situations are not diversions. They are the meat of life.

The life we live is the life we have. it is good to be intentional, but it is also good to be realistic and understand that we have not, do not, and will not control all aspects of life. We must be good at being appropriately proactive and intelligently reactive. To do that, we need to understand just a little how life works. Once we find our True Center, we find it's not outside of us. It's not in the past, nor the future. And it really has very little to do with the day-to-day activities we are involved in. We can learn to cooperate with the nurturing aspect of the Universe, but we must learn as well that we can't control it. Nor should we even want to. Once we become acquainted with our higher aspects, that of Ultimate Reality residing within us, of which we are part and parcel, we see that all is well in this world. We can do our best to live engaged and intentional lives, but we do well to understand that doing so is based more on internal understanding than it is external manipulation. In short, we should be centered and go with the flow.

This is what I called applied training. So, on those days when life doesn't allow me time to meditate or work on my Taiji form, I know that this is the time to apply the training. When family obligations override training plans, it is time to respond with love, to utilize that Center we so fondly nurture in practice. When it's all said and done, all we really want is to live life the best we can.

The Everyday Miracle

10/11/2019

Samsara is Nirvana. Waking up is as ordinary as swatting flies. It doesn't require beads and robes, exotic names and ceremony. It doesn't require anything, really. It's just ordinary and simple. I imagine we encounter sages all the time throughout our lives, we just don't recognize them because we are seeing bus drivers and beggars, lawyers and nurses. Imagine Jesus sitting on the bank of a river, or a lake in the park, fishing with a cane pole. They say Babaji lives in a Himalayan cave. Surely he isn't looking for anything, or drilling yoga in search of enlightenment. Or consider Han Shan, wandering the Chinese countryside, writing poetry on the side of barns with broken pieces of coal. To borrow from Joan Osborne, "What if God was one of us?" Could we then slow down and take it easy?

Truth is a product of perception, not necessarily of looking, searching, struggling. Our practices and paths, while quite precious to us, have limited value in terms of Ultimate Reality. Maybe we should be willing to ditch them altogether in order to find what has been right under our noses for all of eternity. At best, we can reconsider their purpose, or even better realize that everything is Dharma, that everyone is our teacher, and all our teachers are Satgurus.

Grandbaby Wisdom

9/28/2019

I am in the fortunate position to be welcoming a healthy new grand daughter to the world. Once again, I am reminded of the miracle of life in all its glory. In the first couple of days, as I was holding her and looking into her eyes, it dawned on me that this was beginner's mind in action. She was calmly looking around and taking in everything as it appeared. At this point, she has no conceptions, no paradigms, no formulae for life. It's all new.

Over the first couple of weeks I noticed how she grew and changed. Another marvel. At first, I was thinking that is it wondrous how much little ones change in such a short amount of time. But later, as I pondered that more, it dawned on me that my own 'paradigm' for that thinking is the assumption that we adults are more or less fixed, or at least we grow and change much slower than infants. As I considered that it became clear those assumptions are erroneous. It is marvelous to note the changes in the new infant, but in comparison to adults those changes are just more obvious, not more in quantity.

We all change daily, whether we are ripe from the womb, or ripe in old age. Change is change, regardless of our experiences and so-called knowledge. Not that us old folk haven't learned and grown in ways that children haven't had the chances to do yet. We have. However, we have also forgotten how to observe the changes that still happen daily, hourly, really every second. What holds us back, or stunts our growth so to speak, is our tendency to not notice and be grateful for the copious changes that make up our existence. Life is nothing less than change, growth, and constant learning and adapting.

This is an opportunity for growth. Understanding, that to enter the Kingdom, we must become as children; that Beginner's Mind is Zen Mind; that the return to a prenatal state is more than inner alchemy, it is attitude, state of mind, a starting point for Right Action.

Cannon Fist

8/28/2019

There is a flame, a fire below the cauldron, which ever burns, but is not always utilized. It is the internal fire of change, the motive power of transformation.

This fire refines the inner metal, burning off impurities and attachments that we might see clearly, move smoothly. The components of the flame are alignment, balance, timing, the coordination of the various jin, the intensity of intention.

The initiation of action, the form, is the spark of ignition. The burning is unmistakable at the flame tears through the central channel, searching for fuel and initiating change. And when the flame dies down, after it has burned out, we are never the same.

Subjective Training

8/14/2019

In my approach to Taiji-Qigong all training is subjective. Our abilities, our goals, the visible reality of our goals, the meaning of these goals, even having goals at all is subjective. Setting an objective standard is a game-stopper and a sure fire way to alienate people who may otherwise benefit from the practice.

My biggest frustration as a teacher, if I have any at all, is getting across the idea that we are all different and that is OK. I don't expect everyone to be able to do the same things the same way. I don't expect anyone to progress at any speed other than what is typical for said person when he/she is doing his/her best. Our bodies know what they need--much better than we do, much better than our teachers do. It is sad to me to see students who think they are struggling, and are holding up the rest of the class. First of all, struggle is a mental construct. You only struggle if you believe you struggle. Second, there is no holding up the class, because there is no where to go. The benefits of practice are found in the practice, not at the end of practice. No one is or should be in a hurry. If they are, they have also misunderstood the nature of this practice. If I have said it once, I've said it a million times: the means are the end.

The way to progress is through diligence, humility, and surrender. That includes surrendering expectations. We should all just go with the flow, flow with the wind. Take a step, then take another. If you feel the pace of things is too fast, slow down and go at your own pace. If you think the pace of things is too slow, slow down and look really close at every single movement, every breath, every intention. You may find it's not going slow enough.

Taiji-Qigong practice should be fun, relaxing, and energizing. Let it.

Hacking, or Not

7/30/2019

There is one sure fire way to not progress in practice, and that is to not practice. Yet ironically that is something we often see in "practitioners". Often, these are the practitioners who have the most pressing questions in class or during workshops, the most doubtful about this, that, or the other thing. And they are as well the practitioners who will jump from workshop-to-workshop, style-to-style, retreat-to-retreat looking for the right thing to answer the same inner questions we all have. What they are less likely to do is practice hard, on their own, on a regular basis.

Training is not medicine. Medicine is something you go to for a relatively quick fix when nothing else works. There are times when medicine is necessary for all of us. Training is something else altogether. The practitioner who does her yoga asana/Taiji form/gym routine/meditation/Qigong sequence (whatever the preferred practice) on a regular basis like clockwork will progress. This is a given certainty. The practitioner who only goes to class once or twice a week (or month) will never progress at the same rate. There is no hacking of the process.

In recent years there has been a renewed interest in psychedelics and jungle medicine as a type of bio-hack, a quick way to reach understanding about oneself and the nature of reality. There is some validity to this approach under certain circumstances, and it certainly has a place for some people as a part of the path. But I question any shortcut to growth as a final approach. I fully believe that eventually we have to do the work. Faddish diets for quick weight loss; supplements for quick muscle development; energy medicine for physiological/psychological relief; psychedelics for enlightenment--all of these approaches may work in a certain context, but as hacks they are just shortcutting the work of discipline, which will need to happen sooner or later.

I have said many times, there is no means to an end, the means are the end. The thing you are looking for in practice is found in the training itself. Embracing discipline will reveal your higher self. The purpose of the path is for it to become so routine that it isn't a path at all. Arriving is found in the striving, but once you stop moving the need arises again and again. Concurrently, looking for satisfaction through a hack will lead to another hack, and another. So what is your chosen path?

Understanding Taiji-Qigong Practice

7/26/2019

This subject could be controversial. This blog post could ask questions and answer them so as to suit closed minds. But it won't. There is enough of that in the world as it is. This post addresses Taiji-Qigong practice as I practice it and teach it. For the rest of this post, Taiji-Qigong is addressed as "practice".

Practice doesn't have to hard, but it should be challenging. Practice should be slow, but it should at times be fast. Practice should include enough of the type of movement that challenges, heals, and improves function in the practitioner's body. Practice should include stillness so that the practitioner better understands her/his body. Practice should include silence so the practitioner can address the nature of mind. Practice should include some partner work, if practical, so the practitioner can understand others. Practice should be consistent and routine. Practice should be fun. If it isn't, the practitioner should reconsider, refine, or reform. Practice alternates between stillness and movement, and the goal is to develop each of those qualities equally. Neither of those qualities take precedence over the other.

Practice may include a choreographed form, but that is not necessary. Practice can be the same every day, but is better if it is mixed up. Practice should include strength training; stretching and flexibility; relaxation; agility training; balance training; cognitive training; meditation; energy work; standing practice; compassion; focus training; and proper diet and rest. These are the basic components of practice.

The specifics of training are determined by one's teacher, needs, likes and dislikes. Don't get stuck on a fixed idea as to what determines proper training. Understand the basic components of "practice" and build your routine from there. The rest is just icing on the cake.

Again, the basic components of practice: strength training; stretching and flexibility; relaxation; agility training; balance training; cognitive training; meditation; energy work; standing practice; compassion; focus training; and proper diet and rest.

Full Circle

7/25/2019

"Awareness expresses Itself through the agency of an idea or concept, namely the individual mind or ego. What an interesting situation. This produces an ardent desire to undertake a spiritual quest and guarantees that the quest will ultimately fail. Yes, fail. Of course, failure is really success because the remedy to this impossible dilemma is to exhaust all remedies. So there you go. Keep searching until all desire to obtain that which has always been present drops away entirely. Along with the ego idea that started all this mischief. Then go chop some wood and carry it up the mountain that just reappeared." Richard Young

In the Shadow of The Moon

7/16/2019

The Full Moon of July, Guru Purnima. When we honor the teacher, we are in effect honoring the teaching. The Perennial Teaching has been passed down through time, transmitted by those who have some understanding and a leading to share. In different cultures and different times it has changed and adapted, but in essence the message is the same. Once one gets it, the message seems simple and at times overblown. But if one is lost in the Matrix, it couldn't be more timely, more necessary.

Let's face it. At some point in life we trust our emotions, our senses, our neighbors, our egos, the mythologies we have been fed, and the fear behind them. And accordingly we spin through life till things seem out of control. And as the saying goes, when the student is ready the teacher appears.

One of my teachers once said to consider that when the teacher is pointing toward the moon, his/her focus may not be the moon at all, but something beyond. The teacher, in the shadow of said moon, is simply passing on what is necessary for the student. Often, the student rejects it, doesn't digest it, or mistakes it for something else altogether. But once it is out there it takes on a life of its own. It can, and often will, come back around again.

And the teaching is more than words, more than practice. Traditionally, the word Dharma is interpreted as the way, or path, indicating more than just words or teaching, but action, commitment. And once we take that step, putting it into action, becoming the teaching, life can and will never be the same.

There is a saying in Buddhist circles that if one meets the Buddha he should kill him. This may be the most potent teaching. We should honor our teachers, as we should honor all life. We should of course be grateful. But to truly honor the teacher is to take on the Dharma to the point that the teacher embodied is no longer necessary, while at the same time acknowledging that everyone, everything is our teacher. In which case, Guru Purnima is celebrating the path and all who are on it. In other words: all of life.

There is another saying: when the student is truly ready, the teacher disappears. I am at this point wondering the wisdom of these words. My teacher originally appeared in my life when I needed the teaching the most, despite the fact that I was not mature enough or intelligent enough to handle it. Over the years it grew till I was ready for the enormity of it, and the simplicity. Just this year, my teacher left this plane. But the teaching is eternal and I have lots of work to do yet. Fortunately, I have plenty to work with.

Fifty years ago today, Apollo 11 launched for the moon. It is overcast here today on this Guru Purnima. I may not be able to see the moon tonight, much less beyond it. But I have the teaching. My teacher is and will always be with me in spirit. And I have my other teachers, those I know and those yet to appear. The keys to the kingdom are found in the Now, in what is in front of us in this moment.